Thank You

Somehow, Thanksgiving is tomorrow! I wanted to do a long post of all the things I am thankful for this year. Key term in that sentence is wanted. I have a busy day ahead of me in preparing for our vacation tomorrow. I did, however, want to take a few minutes to say how thankful I am for this blog.

Having this blog the past few months has totally changed my struggle with infertility. It is amazing how close I feel to some of you. Your words of encouragement are so appreciated!
Recently, a lot of people have "come out of hiding", saying they have been following my story. I am humbled to think that our story is worth following.

If you have been reading my blog, please let me know. I would like to be reading yours. I enjoy reading everyone stories and putting my two cents in. :)

Again, thank you to anyone that has reached out to me over the past few months. Your opinions and advice are beyond helpful! I patiently await the day that I can be an example of hope for others.

Thank you from the bottom of my aching heart.

Wishing all of you a Happy Thanksgiving! Tom and I are off to Vegas tomorrow afternoon..

PS-I haven't decided if I will be testing early yet. I will not be testing tomorrow, but may on Friday or Saturday. You'll just have to wait to find out..

Friend Details

My thoughts are somewhat clear enough to add some details/backround to the story.

My friend is 22 years old and going to college. The baby's dad is her previous long-time boyfriend. She met him in IL and he was originally from northern IN. They decided after a few months of dating to move to Indianapolis together. Everything was great until a little after their year anniversary. They broke up and the boyfriend moved in with his Uncle, while my friend stayed at the apartment until the lease was up. She then moved into a home with some girlfriends. They were on bad terms for a few months and then had started talking again around her birthday in September. Apparently they had been doing more than talking, and she is now 5 weeks pregnant. Oh yeah, and she is adopted.

First off, I am flattered that she would think of us first. I think that says a lot about us as people, a couple, future parents. Here are some of my concerns:
1. She is a tiny girl. Im talking 5 feet and 100 lbs. She could still have pregnancy complications.
2. When she tells her family, they could want her to keep it.
3. She could grow attached as time goes on and decide against it.

Like I said, Tom and I have never even discussed adoption. We really want our own children. Plus, we are young with little savings thanks to treatments, so we would never be approved or could afford it. But this is a totally differnt situation. I mean, if it came down to the baby going to a stranger or to us...why not us?

I had originally been gearing my 2ww stresses to thoughts about our trip. Now, they are being overpowered by this situation. I am still hoping this is the cycle that worked for us. I went for my progesterone check this morning and it was 23.9. Better than its ever been!

I am torn on whether I should test on Thursday. Any advice, ladies? Should I test and see a positive, I would be over the moon happy our entire vacation. If I saw a negative, it could really damper the mood. If I don't test, I could drink while being pregnant on vacation. Is Thursday too soon? And to anyone that got a recent BFP, what was your progesterone level the week before? I am trying to prepare myself for the results, either way...Please, any input would help!

Phone Call

As if my heart hasn't been through enough, I get this phone call tonight.

Friend:Hey, Erin, how are you?
Me:Good, you driving home right now?
Friend:No, I'm coming home Tuesday.
Me:Oh, okay.
(Long Pause)
Friend:So, have you and Tom thought about adoption?
Me:No, not really. Whyyyyy?
Friend:I'm pregnant.
Me:In shock trying to hold back tears, says Oh my goodness
Friend:Yeah, I'm 5 weeks, due in July. *Inserts dads name* doesn't want anything to do with it. I cant have a baby right now and was thinking how you guys have been trying to have a baby. I would want you to have it.
Me:Struggling to speak due to tears, Oh wow. Uhm, well I think its something we could really talk about. Call me when you're on you're way home Tuesday. We will find time to talk before we leave because I just want to hug you.
Friend:Okay. Talk to you then.

Oh my freakin' goodness! I could have asked a million questions but I had to get off the phone so I could bawl. I cried harder than I have in a very long time. I am so overwhelmed with emotion right now. I know its still so early and she could have complications or change her mind. Plus, we truly have never talked about adoption because we've been so set on having our own children. We have a lot to talk about. And stress about. Sigh.

I'm still in shock. How can I deal with this while I am dealing with so much else? I guess we'll find out.

Amazing Quote

As I was reading my Glamour magazine this past week, I came across a quote in the Nicole Kidman interview. Shes says, "Its very easy for a couple to experience joy together. But when you experience pain together, it can lead to such depth and such union." Of course, she is referring to her husband Keith Urban's alcohol addiction. But, I think that quote is amazing. Its easy to be in love when life is easy. I still don't understand why we have been chosen to be infertile, but it is strengthening us each and every day. Neither of us ever imagined our life would go this way..but were dealing with it. I could imagine doing it with anyone else.

Nicole's husband happens to be one of my favorite artists. One of his great songs is "Better Life." Here is a snippet of my fave verse-

Someday baby,

You and I are gonna be the ones

Good luck's gonna shine

Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones

So hold on

We're headed for a better life..

I know we are headed there. I hope its soon.

At Keith Urban's concert last November

New Nephew

Tyler Joseph

Born 11-18-2008

1:56 pm.

7 lbs. 13 oz.

20 inches

Proud Mama moments after

Showing off baby boy

Beautiful profile

When is it our turn?

Isn't he precious? Yep, I'm in love. I have a feeling we are going to be great buddies. We are both the third child and both born on the 18th of the month. :)

Let me just say, a hospitals labor and delivery floor=infertiles worst nightmare. I was sure I'd be okay. I knew this was coming. I couldn't wait to meet him. But the second they put that little peanut in my arms, I cried. I cried because he was beautiful. I cried because I wish I was holding my own baby. I cried because I was instantly smitten. I cried because I thought I would have one by now.

I need to add that I am not an emotional person. I have friends that cry every week like its normal. I am not like that at all. I have always taken pride in being one to control emotions. That has somewhat changed due to infertility, but I still don't consider myself fragile or overly emotional. So, this was embarrassing and really hard for me. Ugh, I cringe thinking about it.

Anyway, I am currently 3 days post IUI. I am feeling unbelievably at ease. I have kept it completely off my mind and focused all my energy to our trip next week. I will be extremely busy until we leave, which helps. I go in Monday for my progesterone test. I am considering testing next Thursday before we leave. That would put me at 10/11 days post IUI's. Wouldn't that be amazing? To find out I am pregnant on Thanksgiving...that would be a dream. If I am not, I will go drink away my pain in Vegas and ignore whats coming up at home..that IVF talk..

Tyler aka Teej, TJ, or Tyger came home today! My family is BIG on nicknames! Below are pics:

Ready to come home

Snuggled in the blanket I made him

Big Sis Laney

Uh-oh, sad baby

Cuddled in his blanket

Uncle Tomtom admiring

Theres much more to update, but Greys Anatomy is calling. Goodnight!

That's Better

The second IUI went great today! Toms numbers skyrocketed to 60 million and 95% motility. I had a little more pain this time and bled a bit. It makes sense, since my cervix has been messed with two days in a row. I am hoping those spermies find my luscious eggs and make a peanut for us. Let the two week wait begin..

My sister is being induced at 8 am tomorrow. I got her a card to be given to her after she has the baby. Heres what I wrote in it.

Jeralyn-

Well, not only did you beat me to getting pregnant, you lapped me.

Watching you grow, both physically and in excitement, has been one of the most difficult situations I have ever been in. I wanted to be sure you knew how happy I am for you. I love being an Auntie more than anything and am so excited to get another baby to adore. I am hoping I will be giving you a niece/nephew soon.

I also wanted to let you know how proud I am to say you're my sister. It amazes me that you are able to accomplish so much every day. Somehow you manage to be a mom of two, pregnant, a student, a wife and have a job. I truly hope that when I am finally lucky enough to be a mother, I am as great as you are.

Thanks in advance for letting me "borrow" the baby once in a while. :)

Congrats on becoming a mommy for the THIRD time. I love you.

-Erin

I'm not very good at putting my feelings into words. Funny, since I have a blog. Happy Monday!

One down, One to go

Tom and I went out both Friday and Saturday this weekend, which is rare for us. Usually we pick one night and stay home the other. I think we wanted to get our minds off that upcoming IUI's and have a good time. Friday we went to dinner at Red Robin with Toms friend Elise and her boyfriend. Toms directions got them lost on the way there. Somehow, he ended up getting mixed up and getting us lost too. After a frustrating drive that was much longer than planned, we really enjoyed our meal. Its so nice catching up with friends you haven't seen in a while. She always asks, "Whats new and exciting?" I cant wait for the day I can answer, "We're pregnant!"

"When we're lost, but holding hands.

I live for little moments like that."

Saturday I babysat and then rushed home to take my trigger shot. Those are the only ones that hurt for me and this one was no different. I sucked it up and we rushed over to the theatre to see Role Models. We got there after previews started and were stuck sitting in the 3rd row. The movie was funny, but my contacts were so dry at the end of it.

Our appointment was at 9 this morning. By 9:15 we were told it would be one to one and a half hours until they were ready for the IUI. We walked to get a bagel and waste some time. Ya know what time they called me back, 11:40!! Tom and I made the time pass by playing I spy. Much to my surprise, it eased my nerves and was kind of fun.

Toms numbers were on the low end this time. We are thinking it's due to the medicines he has been on. We have never had a problem with it before. I'm planning to ask my nurse tomorrow. I am even more thankful we opted to do the double IUI's this month. I'm hoping we have much better numbers tomorrow! We did the IUI and were very happy to be driving home. I felt little to no pain all day. We joked about how I should lay on my left side to help the spermies go that route. That's exactly what I did when I got home. :)

The rest of my day was relaxing. I did some scrap booking, updated my IPOD, and watched the Bears loose. I had a craving for Cold Stone after dinner and went to get some with my niece. Birthday cake remix is my all-time fave!

Princess enjoying Cold Stone

Tomorrow's IUI will be nothing like today. I won't even see Tommy at the office! He is going at 10:30 and I will arrive around 11:30. I will be on a very tight schedule and need to get back to work within an hour. Then, I will have to just continue with a normal day of caring for 3 small children. Hopefully they take a long nap!

I took some pics of the kids, telling them it would be their last before the new baby. Baby is still scheduled to arrive Tuesday. Tom and I will go meet him/her after work and then stay at my sisters house until they come home from the hospital on Thursday.

Ready for their new sibling!

The last picture of the 3 grand kids,

plus my parents dog, Murphy

As Beyonce would say, "To the left, to the left."

IUI Squared

As most know, I went to the doctors this morning for blood work and an ultrasound. The u/s tech informed me that I have a 17mm and a 17.5mm follicle on my left ovary. I also have a 12mm on my right. I got my blood drawn and started driving home.

I have been reading a lot of success stories lately concerning two IUI's performed in a row. I decided to leave a message with my nurse, asking her to talk to the doctor and see if he would be open to it. I made it clear that we want to "cover all our bases" this round since its possibly our last chance before IVF. She called back a few hours later with great news!

I did one last shot of follistim tonight. I'm hoping that puts the two follies over 20 and the one on the right to at least 16. I will take the Ovidrel tomorrow evening and go downtown for an IUI at 9 am. THEN, I will go in Monday at 11am for a second IUI. Why not double our chances?

I'm a little concerned how my body will take it physically. Well, and how I will handle it emotionally. One IUI is straining enough! At least Tommy will be able to take care of me Sunday. Monday, I will be on my own.

I am hoping I make Tommy a Daddy in August. :)

Pregnant Again

Look who else is pregnant. Hint:It's not me.

http://edition.cnn.com/2008/HEALTH/11/13/man.pregnant.again.walters/?iref=mpstoryview

Unbelievable.

Lab Rat

Last night, as Tom is preparing the injection-

Tom:I feel like I need a white lab coat for how often I do this.

Me:Oh, how I love being your lab rat. *Very sarcastic, of course*

I am beyond anxious for the appointment tomorrow. There are so many thoughts running through my head. Will there be any follicles? Will there be too many? I am trying not to stress and hoping for the best.

I'll update in the morning!

Christmas Heartbeat

Well, I'm still exhausted. I don't think I have fully caught up on sleep nor will I until the weekend. Thanks for your concern for Tom! He is feeling much better. He spent all day, Monday and Tuesday, sleeping and drinking ridiculous amounts of water. He returned to work today and said his stomach isnt in pain, but its not completely comfortable. I may drag him to the doctors this weekend to get everything checked again.

I finished my 5 days of Clomid and start my injections tonight! Tommy and I were just talking about how quickly this month passed! I will go in Friday for my check to see when the IUI will be performed. We're still crossing our finger that it will be done on Sunday. That way, we can have a full day to relax and recover. This is my last chance to get pregnant and know the results before Christmas. Please please please, let me get pregnant! I don't know if Ill make it to 22 if I don't. Okay, perhaps thats a little dramatic, but it's exactly how I feel! How am I supposed to sit around and be happy when I am dealing with this burden every second of every day?

I am beginning to dread everything about the holidays. Usually I am one counting the days until Christmas and couldnt be happier. This year, things are very different. I wish we had a baby to sit on Santas lap. I wish we could send out Christmas cards as a family of 3. I wish we had a child to spoil like crazy. I wish we could have the best Christmas ever, not the worst.

All I want for Christmas is a heartbeat!

I believe Tom and I have agreed that we will simply ask for VISA giftcards from everyone. This way, we can apply it toward fertility costs..whether its a prescription, a co-pay, anything!

I remember last year around this time I was a few weeks late. I thought, "Maybe I'm pregnant." I had this whole scenerio mapped out in my head. I thought, if we found out, we would keep it a secret until Christmas. I would wrap a box addressed to my 9 year old nephew, Mikey and put a note inside that said Auntie Erin is pregnant! How fun would it have been to see/hear/record that? My dreams were crushed and have been every month since.

The pressure is on.

A night in the ER

I.am.exhausted.

Let me start at the beginning. Tom worked out on Friday afternoon. He did his usual routine of running and sit-ups. He said he pushed himself a little harder than he normally does, but didn't think much of it. Saturday he felt the normal soreness and was fine. Saturday night while he was working, he started getting sharp pains on his abdomen. He didn't sleep well and woke up yesterday in even more pain. He was simply miserable all day yesterday. He couldn't stand up straight, wasn't comfortable in any position and it even hurt to laugh. He is a typical guy that is tough and doesn't think he needs medical intervention. At about 9:30pm, I noticed an odd discoloration on his stomach and insisted we go to the ER. After about 30 minutes of coaxing, he gave in and we drove to the hospital. They registered him quickly and examined him. The doctor said he thought it was just a muscle strain and some pain med.'s would help. They gave him vicodin and a muscle relaxer and said he should feel better in 30 minutes and they'd check back in an hour. An hour went by and he felt worse. The doctor was surprised he didn't get any relief and decided to take blood, start an IV, and get a CT scan. Ahh! Those are not words a worried, helpless wife wants to hear. They did the first two and then he had to drink a liquid that tasted horrible and wait 2 hours for the scan. At 2:30 am, they came for him and luckily he was back pretty fast. They said the results would take 30-40 minutes. An hour later, the doctor finally came in and said he strained his abdominal wall and also has kidney stones, but they shouldn't be causing any pain. Basically, he said they didn't know exactly where the pain was coming from. 5 am we were walking out of the hospital, frustrated that we were there for 7 hours and he felt no relief. We went to a 24 Walgreen's to fill his prescriptions and finally got home close to 6. I called work and let them know I needed to get some sleep before I could function for the day. Our bed has never been so comfortable!

Tom slept the majority of today. The codeine medicine has helped the main pain. However, now he said the pain is on one side and his back. I looked on WebMD and those are symptoms of the kidney stones. I think we are going to go to the doctors one night this week to get another opinion.

I, on the other hand, wasn't able to sleep all day. I slept from 6-11am. I changed my chiropractor appointment from 6 pm to noon. I ran some errands and worked from 3:30-6:30. Now I am really hoping my IUI doesn't fall on next Monday. I don't want to have interferences with work two Mondays in a row. If it does, oh well. These are things out of my control..

That was our second experience at a hospital together. The one other time was when he sliced his fingers and needed stitches. I hate the feeling of knowing the person you love the most in the entire world is in pain and there's nothing you can do about it. I would have so much rather been the one on the bed. We joked about how we can't wait to be back in the hospital giving birth to our baby.

Speaking of babies, Tom needs to feel better soon so we can make one this week!

Also speaking of babies, I will have a new niece or nephew in one week or less. They moved my sisters induction date up to Nov. 18th, but they don't know if she will make it until then. It is such a bittersweet feeling. I love being an aunt and can't wait to cuddle that little peanut, but gosh, its gonna hurt. Really bad.

I am going to climb into bed and cuddle with my sick hubby. Goodnight.

Batter Up

It's already Saturday night? I picked up a lot of extra babysitting this weekend and am really looking forward to having tomorrow off. Tom is working security until 2am, which leaves me time to blog and watch Click with the doggies.

I will be attending my first RESOLVE support group on November 20th. I am really looking forward to it! Other than my bloggin' buddies, I only know one person going through the same things I am. It'll be nice to see real life women that have the same aspirations I do..to be a mama!

I went to my first Chiropractor appointment on Friday and it was AMAZING! The doctor said she has dealt directly with three women with unexplained infertility and all three got pregnant shortly after. Yay for that!

I got the "go ahead" from the doctor on Friday and started Clomid that evening. I will do my injectibles Wednesday and Thursday and get checked on Friday. I am expecting to not have the IUI until Sunday or Monday since we are using a lower dose of Follistim. Of course, I am hoping for Sunday so it doesn't interfere with work. I know, beggars cant be choosers!

As always, I am really hoping this cycle works. There is a lot riding on it! If I don't get pregnant, I will be potentially moving onto IVF. I just read a lot about it in a book called Conception Chronicles and am officially terrified of the entire process. I have my appt. to talk with the doc on Dec. 1st. I know no major decisions will be made until after we get all the details. I kinda think its going to come down to how much we will have to pay for a much higher success rate. Sigh. .

The book refers to the different fertility processes as 3 strikes, you're out. Well, I am up to bat with two strikes. Let's pray for a home run!

Sunny Days

Rewind to Friday. I had my blood drawn at 8 am. I relaxed for a bit, caught up with some emails and took the dogs for a walk. I decided to take Brady and Delaney out for a fun lunch after school. We went to Ed Devebic's. They thought it was fun; I thought it was expensive. I dropped them off and went by Christina's to see baby Madison on her 1st Halloween. I was there when I got the dreaded phone call. I had mentally prepared myself for a negative result and was able to keep my composure. I wanted to go home and crawl into bed for a few hours. Who am I kidding, a few days! I picked myself up off the pavement and went trick or treating with my sister and our pregnant friend, Missy. Talk about torture! I should have skipped it, but I am trying so hard to not let infertility change who I am. I am trying to do everything I would have done before we started this process. I think I may have pushed a little too much on Friday. To make matters worse, Tom came home and went to sleep from about 7pm-2am. He had to wait in line to get an application for the police department. They only give out a limited number and he wanted to guarantee himself a spot. That left me with one boring night filled with sadness and doubt.

Cooper, upset the IUI failed

Guinness, wondering when it will work

Saturday I turned over a new leaf. Tom and I actually discussed the results and comforted each other. Okay, he comforted me. We ran some quick errands and headed down to ISU with our friends Sam and Bretton. We arrived early and the boys went to the driving range while we searched for a nail salon. After driving around for 25 minutes, we gave up, picked up the guys, and got dropped off at Jamie's apartment. My friend Ally did my hair and make-up. I am generally a self-conscious person. However, when she gets me ready to go out, I feel beautiful. We ended up having such a great night. A night that was long overdue.

Tommy and Brandon, Jamie's boyfriend

Alex and Ally

Me and Jamie, my best friend

My amazing husband and Me

At the Country Bar!

Sam and Erin

Tommy, Bretton and Jeff

Sunday we drove home and still had a lot of our day. I treated myself to a pedicure while Tom did some homework. We climbed into bed much too early and watched Saw 4, as we were seeing Saw 5 the next day.

This week has been absolutely gorgeous outside. The weather has been 65-70 degrees and sunny! Apparently it wont last much longer. They predict it to be 45 degrees by Friday. Oh well, I am enjoying it while it lasts!

I found a new place to start acupuncture. I called around and found a chiro clinic that takes our insurance. The first 10 appointments are free per calendar year. After that, each visit is a $40 co-pay. That basically means I wont have to pay a dime until at least February. That is a big change from paying $85 each visit. Plus, its only 5 minutes away, compared to 30! I go in Friday for my consultation. Woo hoo!

I voted for the first time ever yesterday! I am very pleased with the results of the election and am happy to have been a little part of it. This is the stuff our kids will read about in history books.

Tommy and I are going to get a flu shot at Walgreen's tonight. He was sick quite a few times last year and I want to get one in case I end up pregnant. :)

My sisters induction date has been moved up to November 24th. This is great news for Tom and I! We will be able to see the baby for a few days before we head off to Vegas. Tom is also excited because if this baby does make it to the 24th, he will have another niece/nephew with that date. He is Feb. 24 and Delaney is Oct. 24th. He loves it!

Speaking of Vegas, I am getting really, really excited! I have been planning our days and organizing our money. We need this vacation to remind us why were trying so hard to make a family...because we're madly in love!

I think that concludes my very random post. Happy Wednesday!

Here we go Again

I feel like there is a lot to update on. I'll focus this post on the infertility part of my life.

1-The second IUI was unsuccessful and just as disappointing as the first. If not more. I hurt for a few days but have come to terms with it.

2-Tom and I decided that we are so lucky to have our age on our side. I was fortunate to meet him so young and start trying for a baby soon after. At least we found out we were infertile sooner than later and can do something about it now.

3-We also know that this is the hardest part of our family making. We figure after the first pregnancy one of two things will occur. Either babies will start coming on their own...or we will skip all these steps that didn't work and go directly to whatever got me pregnant the first time...IUI, IVF, whatever!

4-I was very nervous about when my period would come this month. I had a 27 day cycle following the last IUI. That was the month I ended up having cysts and had to skip a cycle. Then I had a 39 day cycle. I am so happy that today is CD 1. I had a normal 28 day cycle! I am thankful it came on time because not this IUI wont interfere with our Las Vegas trip. Hopefully there wont be any cysts when I head to the doctors on Friday.

5-The plan for this month is 50 mg Clomid followed by 50 units of Follistim for 2 days. They lowered the dosage from 75 to 50 in hopes that my body has a few extra days to grow more follicles and get a thick lining. The IUI will fall somewhere between the 15-18th, depending on growth.

6-I asked the nurse how many IUI's patients do before they have the IVF talk. She said 3-4. Since I am approaching my 3rd, we decided I should go ahead and make that appointment. I am set for 10:30 am on Monday, December 1st. After making that appointment, I was overwhelmed with emotion. I just wanted to cry. I am 21 years old making appointments for in vitro? I still cant believe it. Of course, I pray that cycle works and I can cancel that appointment.
*I know NOTHING about IVF. Any information or advice you can give would be greatly appreciated. About the shots, money involved, timing, anything at all! Thanks in advance!*

7-When I was first prescribed Clomid, I did all the research and was convinced we would end up with triplets. Toms favorite number is 3, as it was his basketball number growing up. I was naive and sure he jinxed us. Well, I have now turned my thoughts into hope that it wasn't triplets we would be blessed with, but our third IUI would do the trick. I'm sure that number has some significance..

8-We remain hopeful and optimistic that we will not receive a 22nd BFN, but a BFP instead!

Triple Tagged

I was just catching up on others blogs and noticed I was tagged a few times. Here it goes:

Answer the following questions with single word responses:

1. Where is your cell phone? counter
2. Where is your significant other? work
3. Your hair color? changes
4. Your mother? giver
5. Your father? provider
6. Your favorite thing? babies
7. Your dream last night? none
8. Your dream/goal? mama
9. The room you're in? family
10. Your hobby? lots
11. Your fear? baby-less
12. Where do you want to be in six years? mama
13. Where were you last night? lounging
14. What you're not? unhappy
15. One of your wish list items? baby
16. Where you grew up? Illinois
17. The last thing you did? lunch
18. What are you wearing? comfy
19. Your T.V.? big
20. Your pet? puppers
21. Your computer? fast
22. Your mood? impatient
23. Missing someone? Mia
24. Your car? new
25. Something you're not wearing? earrings
26. Favorite store? AE
27. Your Summer? quick
28. Love someone? always
29. Your favorite color? blue
30. When is the last time you laughed? morning
31. Last time you cried? Thursday

-AND-

Write 7 random facts about yourself:

1. I am totally addicted to chapstick. And ONLY chapstick. Nothing can substitute Chapstick brand cherry flavor.
2. I am obsessive when it comes to future baby names. I don't want them to..sound the same, end the same, have the same letters, etc. After years of planning, I think we have some winners. :)
3. I love to read. I currently am working through the Nicholas Sparks books.
4. I am a horrible cook. Simply because I never learned how! I make up for it by being a great baker, though.
5. I'm a control freak. I love to plan everything out and write everything down. Imagine my surprise when I found out I couldn't plan my future with children..
6. I am shocked daily at how quickly life passes by. I also mention it almost daily.
7. My initials didn't change when I got married. They will always be EER.

I am supposed to tag 7 people for each of those, but I don't have the time. If you are reading this, consider yourself tagged.

I also don't have time to post about the weekend. I will later tonight.